If we stop and examine our motivations behind most of the things we do or don’t do, we will mostly find it is due to our innate human drive to feel good. This is perfectly natural and a part of being human, however if we never come to rest from the incessant need to feel good the irony is, we will always be cutting ourselves off from true freedom and joy in the moment.
Life is both joyful and painful, good and bad, sometime extremely hard and sometimes easy, this is the nature of our relative dualistic life. But true freedom is found when we relinquish the need to feel good all the time. When we let go of the idea of ourselves, let go of the need to have life be and look a certain way and let go of our constant grasping for more of feeling good and less of feeling bad, we can open to a freedom that has been waiting there for us all along.
If we stay stuck in the constant drive of egoic consciousness we not only miss so much of the beauty and joy life is showing us, but we also may turn away from the deep healing work that is part of the path of our evolving consciousness. The desire to not feel bad when all your unconscious material surfaces, will keep you running from yourself with nowhere to go in the end.
If our species is to survive and heal the damage the egoic state of consciousness has inflicted upon all other species and our environment it is imperative to face, within ourselves, whatever is necessary to uncover our natural state of undivided consciousness.
From this undivided place where we see that we are not separate from any other being nor are we separate from our environment, then how would we move through the world? How would we treat each other, animals and the environment?
I had a profound moment of redemptive love, to remind me of our divine essence, during a healing session with my beloved mentor and teacher Susanne Marie. An unconditionally loving voice said “You are not separate from life, you have never been separate from life, you are my child.” This love is our essence it is the essence of life and we have cut ourselves off from it with the illusion that chasing things in our external world is how we reconnect to this love that we are.
The good news is even though at some point in the journey we must face our aloneness to let go into freedom, and this may be challenging, we don’t have to do it alone whilst we are trying to find our way. I am deeply grateful for my trauma therapist and integrated trauma therapy teacher Dr Casey Terry who has changed my life with her unending devotion to holistic healing and my spiritual teachers Adyashanti, Mukti, Bonnie Greenwell and Susanne Marie who have shone a light in the dark for so many.